And I’m so full with God’s love, that it is over flowing right now. I just can’t express it, it really does make me cry. :’) The love of the Lord is my strength. :’)
Do you ever have moments or days where your faith in Him wavers?
I am not the perfect Christian. Sometimes, I also become grumpy, and annoyed, and I feel like rebelling against Him by doing things that hurt me. Just last Thursday, I went home feeling so alone and confused, and I collapsed on the carpet, crying uncontrollably. There are so many unpleasant things happening in my life, and there are moments I become so helpless and hopeless, just asking God, “WHY?” I always forget His promises. My love and focus for Him always fluctuate.
But He never does. His love for me never does.
Whenever I am so hopeless, I remind myself of who I was before I met Him, and I ask myself, “When I’m at the edge of the cliff and I feel like falling and failing, why should I let go of the One who gave me life? Why should I forget the One whose love and faithfulness to me never changed? Why should I walk away from Him, who I need the most, who has the only power to save me?”
Why would I have to fear, be afraid, and rebel, when the King of the Universe loves me so much, and He’ll never fail me. I know that during times of doubt and difficulty, transformation is not instant. It will take some time, but that doesn’t matter. I know that nothing bad can ever happen to me.
That Thursday, I asked God, “Do you even care? Why do things go well for others, but not for me? Why does everything that happens the opposite of what I hope for? Am I really alone?”
Then that night, my dad talked to me and said, “I know that you’ve cried this afternoon. What’s the matter? Why worry? Why act that way? Will that change anything? It won’t. Just let go because only God can do something about it, and He WILL do something. Just wait. His love never fails.”
So, what do I do to refocus and redevote my attention to Him? Nothing. I don’t have to do anything, because God is so quick in reminding us His love and grace. He is so quick in doing ways to remind His children that He is always there.
This walk of faith, never had anything to do about me. This walk started because of Him. It still continues because of Him.
“If people say they have faith, but do nothing, their faith is worth nothing. Can faith like that save them?” James 2:14
It’s not that works save the Christian, but that works mark the Christian.
In James’ book of logic, it only makes sense that we who have been given much should give much. Not just with words. But with our lives.
